Nikki Damian

But look at the classes I had this year… -.- 

First Term

1. Geometry-Passed with an A
2. Biology- Passed with an A-
3. Driver’s Ed/ Health- Passed with an A+/B+ (dumb ass teacher -.-)
4. Spanish 2- Passed with an A

Second Term

1. Algebra 2- Currently bringing up a B
2. Core P.E- Currently an A+
3. English 1- Currently A
4. Digital Photography- Currently an A

I’m an over achiever.. As you can see I have sophomore classes. And Mostly all A’s. I got grounded for that final grade in health -.- Asian parents = High educmacation.

Dude shut the hell up. Stop talking to me like I like you. I liked you as a friend, you presented yourself well but now you just aren’t cute to me anymore. You are so fucking annoying now. Shit, I wish I could’ve opened my eyes before letting you approach me. Back the fuck off, you are annoying as fuck. Do you not see how much I’m trying to get rid of you? Do you not see that I’m purposely avoiding you? Mother fucker, I’m making it as obvious as it can get! Shit, you’re fucking making me blow the fuck up. Dumb ass bitch. Get the fuck off, and back the fuck up.

Don’t worry, I won’t hurt you. I will always be there for you. I understand that I can be annoying sometimes but you know well enough that I’m just showing you that I care about you a lot. I know you don’t want to get hurt anymore, that is what I’m here for. I promise you, I won’t hurt you. Trust me, I know what it’s like to get hurt. I never hurt anyone like that and I never will so don’t ever think about me just hurting you. Babe, it’s all in trust. Trust me and you’ll see that I’m here and If you hurt me, it’ll be alright because I’ve experienced pain. But i’d like to let you know, I wont hurt you because it’s something I can’t ever do.

Love,

Your Girlfriend.

Wow.. I can express my words and actually right something worthyful but when it comes to typing up essays about something hard hitting in life I just got nothing. I guess it’s because I like to know that not only can one person know how difficult my life is but a whole bunch that actually relate can just be like, “Oh we’re in the same boat!” and I just don’t have to feel alone.

As you know, I usually don’t have it best when it comes to guys. Seriously, It’s the same bullshit that happens all the time. A cute boy comes along to sweep me off my feet, we start to “talk” and flirt a lot. Then after a week of talking the guy usually has another girl by then. I feel like a rebound. Like this would constantly happen. Yeah I know there’s someone out there for me, but when’s the time where one is right. I mean, I get hurt by the most nicest guy just because I end up getting lead on without knowing or they just drop me. I know I say I’ma drop the guys for a bit. But I can’t help it when I’m so gullible to fall for jerks like that. Why do I always fall for your type? They say pretty girls are the ones who get the nice guys but they don’t see it so they mess them up. I must be cot damn beautiful if people tell me I have an amazing ass personality, and that I’m beautiful. Thanks for you guys who said that. But honestly, I get guys that pick me up not knowing how great I am as a person rather than my looks. I mean what if I got into a car accident would you care that an amazing person is gone or would you care because a pretty face has became ugly? Devious little things that a guy can say to a girl and that girl will always be falling for it. 

I like to see guys on my dash that has problems about someone hurting them and everything, only because it shows how considerate some guys are with their feelings. I mean honestly, how many of you would want to see the one’s who has hurt people get hurt and all these innocent people get happiness out of it? Yeah. My point is, These stupid little games that people like to play is stupid. Feelings aren’t meant to be fucked around with, especially feelings from the heart.

But there are just people I don’t want to talk to. I just don’t want to tell you because you’d be more butt hurt than me just ignoring you. Honestly, I just don’t want to talk to you because you don’t keep me interested enough even if I can make you stay and hold conversations, you just interest me. The only reason why I don’t tell you is because you’d flip out more than if I just ignored you. If I ignore you, you’d probably be like “Oh, it’s cool. She might be busy.” I want you to think that because I don’t want to hurt your feelings. 

On the other hand if I enjoy having conversations with you, I’d most like hit you up first, reply to your messages asap, leave boring ass conversations to have a laugh. But if I ever get annoying, sorry :/ Just know, I like to have conversations with you. This is my way of saying “Hey, our conversations are awesome. I’d like to have another one soon.”

I dislike how a few cute guys try to “get at me” but they never have to balls to stand up and say they are not in it. Like really, you all lead me on like it’s nothing, like i’m a rebound to you. Well let me tell you what, I’m done with how you guys treat me. I’m fed up with it. I know for a fact that I’m smart enough to realize it quick. Show some respect because honestly, you’re hurting me faster than you realize. Just come forward and don’t give me that bullshit. Show some consideration and we can probably build up a friendship.

P.S. same goes for girls that treat guys this way too.

Stop labeling me as “the cute girl I talk to when I have no one else to talk to”. I’m not your bitch, I’m not a last resort.

I just want some company tonight..

When a someone starts to flirt with me, then talks to me on the daily until the end of the week. Like what the fuck…

I find many things ridiculous. Especially relationships now, I understand you just want to be happy but really? Why settle for less? You had that before with that person, you loved them, you gave them your all. They turned the other cheek and dipped out, I see. Why should you go back for that? Sure they might’ve said words, and show some consideration, but what makes you so sure that they won’t do the same all over again. You think things will be different? Well, the reasons why you just get left and you give second chance is all in your head. Honestly, it ain’t your heart because the heart knows best. Give them that second chance, if they show you they’re different, then why go for it if you liked what they were before? It should be that one chance. Second chances, I’ve experienced and gave out too many. Now realizing that it’ll just come over again. Get your act together, look forward. Move on, forget the past. Leave it at that.

Haha, it’s not a shock. I’m a girl. Hey, don’t get me wrong I play video games. Just not that overrated shit and what not. I play fighting games. That’s my games. Come on! Dragon Ball Z: Budakai? Naruto: Clash of the Ninjas? Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles? Marvel VS CapCom? etc.. Racing! Mario Kart and shit. Yeah, that’s my type of games. Let me just own you guys right now nigga.

I know, not everything revolves around me. I know, that I can’t always be helped when I need to be. I know that I should be handling myself. But you know what? I’m tired of games. All I ask for are people who will be there for me.. But what do I get? Bullshit. I’m always there for people, even if it just means listening. It’s just frustrating how I can be so nice and considerate to people and just be there for them, but they can’t even give me one night in return.

I miss how when I used to talk to these boys on the daily on the phone every night just talking about anything and venting whatever comes to mind.. Guys i’m just saying I miss you guys.. It’s like you guys left me.

Where are you guys? I mostly need you boys to cheer me up… What happened to “I’ll always be here for you.”